A post Lenten update

Well, as many of you know that I decided to give up yelling for Lent. I kind of thought I was crazy, but I really wanted to do it. I will say that the first week was the most difficult. I caught myself several times and slipped twice. After the first week passed, it definitely became easier.

It's about 2 weeks post Easter and have I started yelling again? Yes, I have yelled some. I can honestly say that the hardest week was the one immediately following Easter. I failed many times in that week. My trigger during that particular week seemed to be hormonal, which has always been one for me.

What have I done to eliminate/reduce yelling?

1. I stop and take a deep breath. It sounds silly, but sometimes just taking the time to breathe before you respond can totally change the way you respond to a situation.

2. I started eliminating stressors in my life. In my case, my stressors were directly related to be over committed. It hasn't happened overnight, but I'm prayerfully eliminating things.  Many of these things won't actually change until the next school year, but knowing change is around the corner has been helpful.

3. Making sure that I eat breakfast. I will admit that I am a horrible breakfast eater. I know that it is a terrible habit. I'm still not perfect on this one, but I know that low blood sugar and hunger are definite triggers for me. I'm also trying to add in a high protein snack during my mid day crash.

4. Trying to reduce my distractions AKA apple products. This is pretty hard because I try to keep my phone on me all day, so it is really easy to pick it up and start playing on Facebook or Instagram.  I love reading blogs and researching and having my iPhone at my fingertips makes it really easy to do just that. However, by not using it as much during the day, I don't snap at my children nearly as much.

5. Offer grace rather than anger. To myself. To others. Everyone deserves grace. Again, I'm nowhere near perfect, but it is a start. During that breath that I'm taking, I try to ask myself if I'm showing grace in my reaction.

6. Getting more sleep. Because I'm a night owl, I often stay up way too late. My burst of energy comes after dinner time. My kids aren't super early risers, but they usually wake up between 7:30-8:00 am. I'm making an effort to get in bed by 11:00pm and allow myself 8 hours of sleep.  When I'm awake until 2:00 am and waking 6 hours later, it catches up to me quickly. I can assure you that sleepyhead Alicia is grouchy and snarky. Also, the more I research, the more I think my sleep issues are hormonal...which brings me to my next point.

What else am I going to do?

I'm going to make some dietary changes. I had gone gluten free with my entire family last year and slowly started introducing it after about 6 months. I realize now that I really felt better when I wasn't consuming gluten. I'm also going to slowly cut out caffeine and sugar. This is going to be really difficult. I'm going to start in about two weeks, when I don't have as many early morning obligations. After doing some research, I think these three steps will help with my hormonal issues that cause so many mood swings for me. I have never officially been diagnosed with thyroid issues, but I have almost every single symptom of hypothyroidism and borderline TSH levels. I've been researching how to heal it with dietary changes and praying this will help the out of whack hormonal issues I deal with regularly. It also seems as if adrenal fatigue and hypothyroidism go hand in hand. Honestly, even if these are not issues, changing my diet won't hurt me at all. I don't expect this to be an easy change or a quick fix. I'm more focused on long term healing with these dietary changes.

1 Corinthians 6:19-20
19 Don’t you realize that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit, who lives in you and was given to you by God? You do not belong to yourself, 20 for God bought you with a high price. So you must honor God with your body.

So there you have it. God really blessed me during this Lenten season. I truly feel that ending my Lenten journey with the Walk to Emmaus was such fabulous timing. It really gave me an opportunity to re-focus and re-prioritize. For my friends who dove into this challenge with me, I'd love to hear your feedback. What was hard for you? What changes did you make?

Randomness

Nothing inspirational tonight. Just random thoughts going through my head.

Sleep is overrated. In all seriousness, I hate that I can't sleep. It has a.l.w.a.y.s. been an issue for me. In fact, I cannot nap unless I'm pregnant. I'm a weirdo. I cannot turn off my brain.

I really wish there was a word to replace the "F" word. One of my major fails is my mouth. I have gotten soooooo much better since having children. Harrison started a list on the fridge so he can keep track of our bad words. Of course, bad words in our house are "butt, stupid, dumb". Sometimes, there is just no word that replaces the "F" word. I hate that. Major FAIL. Along those lines, I once read an article/study that said there aren't actually enough words in written vocabulary that can express what a woman is feeling. I can totally relate. I often struggle with the right words to describe what I'm feeling. I also read the dictionary for fun. I never said I was cool.

My "go to" music is the Indigo Girls. Belting the IG at the top of my lungs is just therapeutic. Patty Griffin is a close second. Something about twangy and folksy chicks singing their a@$es off while playing the hell out of their guitars is just plain ol' therapeutic. And both of the aforementioned groups/singers sound just as AWESOME live as they do on CDs/radio.

I'm on an absolute spiritual high this week. I cannot explain it. I feel as if the things that God has been trying to get through my incredibly thick skull for years is finally sticking. I'm 34 and finally sorta kinda getting it. Amazing. Absolutely amazing what can happen if you finally let go of yourself and let Jesus shine through. I love that Jesus still loves me if I say the "F" word or if I have baby snot on my shirt. I love what happens when you say, "I'm yours. Use me. Put me where you want me. I know you got my back. We're cool like that."

 I love the word "dude". I had a dog named Dude when I was a child, so this has been a long love affair with the word.

That was a glimpse of about 5 minutes in my brain. It is a strange place to be sometimes.